Tuesday, January 13, 2015

This Is

This is me, 34 weeks pregnant, completely uncomfortable in front of the camera, trying to appease my mother's request for to actually capture myself in a photograph every now and then.

I look at the picture and feel those pangs: the things you want to change about the image, about yourself. And I force myself to remember that this is who I am, flaws and all. I will never be younger or more beautiful than this moment. This is the photograph of a thirty year old woman carrying her fourth child. A woman who is quite happy with the way her life is being lived, despite the fact that she appears to be so very serious. This is a woman loved by her husband and her family and her friends and her children.  A woman who loves her husband and her family and her friends and her children.

13 comments:

  1. You look beautiful! Love this picture! Also love what you're wearing. Something very 60s about it.

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    1. Thanks. Kimonos are the way to go, pretty much always but especially during pregnancy.

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  2. I look at this and I see something of what my life could look like in five years. I gotta say, it looks pretty great. You're gorgeous and so, so valued.

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    1. It's a really damn good life. I hope you find all the happiness. So excited for your new baby girl. You are gonna have a heck of a year. Thanks.

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  3. You look so natural, so raw and so beautiful. You are truly blessed.

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  4. Just gorgeous. A beautiful woman and a beautiful life!

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  5. Glad to read that despite the difficulties, there is contentment :). It's a lovely, lovely photo ...

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  6. You are beautiful, mama!! You and your words just radiate something so special!!! I'm so glad to have found your blog.

    Love, light, and hugs!!
    Jessica

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  7. This is just lovely, YOU are lovely :) xo

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  8. This is (and you are) gorgeous! I've been itching for an image of your pregnant self too. So touched that you shared yourself with us!

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  9. Thank you so much, Lauren. I wish I could do it more easily because I'm certain I'll wish I had one day.

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  10. I just found you through a comment you left on The Ma Books and I just want to say you look beautiful. I wish I would've taken a picture like this when I was pregnant.

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