Tuesday, October 11, 2016

This Weekend We

It was a deliriously wonderful birthday weekend. It started on Friday with a donut castle with three cheerful candles. It continued on with a house cleaning courtesy of my mom and aunt. Then Tom cleaned my car, and we drove off to Annapolis to drink cocktails with our friends, and be treated to dinner at my very favorite downtown restaurant. It was extravagant. Decadent. Joyful. And then, then, we found more friends and we danced in a too crowded bar, dodging elbows and parting for passing patrons. And still, on top of all that, there was time for a fire back in the comfy confines of their perfectly dressed apartment.

That would have been enough, but the weekend kept coming. Our friends drove down from Boston, and our house vibrated with the energy of seven kids, that for a brief period grew to nine. They broke off into rotating pairs. Played with swords. Formed crushes. 

The next day we went to make the most of their trip to the Chesapeake.  We showed up at the Calvert Marine Museum to discover that admission was free, and there were extra activities and vendors there in honor of Patuxent River Appreciation Days. The kids built wooden boats that we brought down to the beach that afternoon to sail down the channel and catch before they left for sea.  The sun turned the brackish water to gold, and there was not one thing about those two hours I would change for money or power.

It was more than I could ask for. More than anyone deserves. After an altogether unpleasant Tuesday, it's good to be reminded what good feels like. I am willing myself back to Friday, the first day of my new year, when I felt deep in my bones, that this year is bound to be a good one. 

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Beach Afternoon

It's always easier once the decision has been made. 

Once I say "I am here now."

The choices in my life that feel so important, that feel as though they could change everything.... they change almost nothing at all.

I must remember to roll and to flow and to sail.

That is where joy hides. 

Right out in the open. 


Tuesday, October 4, 2016

This Weekend We

It seems we are having a hard time shaping our weekends as of late. We're in an in-between time, though I still don't know what the other side will look like.

We haven't had people over as often, and we haven't planned weekends away. Weekends seems to be just full enough to make plans hard, but not quite full enough to feel, well, full.

This weekend, on a rainy Saturday when Sena and Gus were off with friends and Arlo refused to leave his Oma's house, Alamae and I snuck off to the library to gather our arms full of books, in an attempt to give myself a free art history education. Then the two of us went to share a bowl of butternut squash soup and a shortbread cookie, before coming home to watch Advanced Style. Alamae, with her penchant for mismatched shoes, is tastemaker in the making.


And then on Sunday, one of the most proud making moments of motherhood happened when I watched Augustus wade through those baptismal waters and profess his love for Jesus in front of a church full of people. My Gus loves Jesus is a way so pure and whole and beautiful that it makes makes me believe deep in my heart, that he is bound to make this world a kinder, more loving place. His spiritual wisdom is something to behold. If more people followed Jesus's two most important commandments the way Gus does (#1: Love the Lord your God with all your heart #2 Love your neighbor as yourself), I can't even begin to imagine amazing changes we would see and feel and experience.